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[threadspinner]

[ There is a Rose inserting herself into Emil's cuddling bedspace.... ]

[ Most likely because this is the most familiar for her, sharing a bed with him (after Camelot, oops), and also because he seems sad. So clearly the answer is late-night cuddles. ]

Scoot over?

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[squirreledaway]

[he glances at her, and then moves to make room. It seems normal to share a cuddling space..]

Okay.

[threadspinner]

Good. I was worried you'd toss me out to leave me lonely on the floor.

[ it's a joke; she slides in, wrapping an arm around him. ]

I feel like we haven't gotten to do this in a long time.

[squirreledaway]

[RATATOSK MIGHT, LBR but Emil looks a bit surprised, before he realizes it's a joke

he rests his head against hers]

No, Ratatosk might be already asleep.

[threadspinner]

[ 'n' she had a fifty/fifty chance before she jumped in!! ]

[ ubububu, relaxes. ] I had no idea you slept independently.

How are you? Honestly. [ she looks off a little bit, like she's checking to see if anyone else is awake. ] I feel as if we barely talk.

[squirreledaway]

Ah-- I'm fine... It's just been stressful lately.

[now that he's in bed, you can kind of tell by the moonlight that he has a ton of new, recent scars.]

[threadspinner]

[ hey yes, she totally can! Reaching to touch them.... ]

Ah...was there a bad game?

[squirreledaway]

Hail's heart game.

Zwei... got mad at me, and Ratatosk.

[so she cut us to shreds]

[threadspinner]

[ ......a frown, a deep one. she's clearly not happy about it. ]

What happened?

[squirreledaway]

She cut us to shreds... Ah-- Ratatosk annoyed her by escaping the first time, so... She turned off abilities.

[though they were on again for that]

Ah, I... didn't mind so much.

[threadspinner]

[ '-'!!!!!!!!!!! ]

[ pulling him close. ] .....Emil...

[squirreledaway]

It was just cutting me. Which... sounds bad-- but it meant I was being effective.

[threadspinner]

No.

No, no, that's not...something to be okay with. Your life is worth much more than that.

[squirreledaway]

Ah, n-no, it's not that I think my life is worth nothing.

[except it is, but that's neither here nor there]

... It was my actions that gave Zwei so much power in the first place.

[threadspinner]

Your actions....?

I don't...want to believe that it was your fault. And I want to believe you would fight back against such a thing.

[squirreledaway]

I broke up with Hail, so she decided to destroy her own heart.

[threadspinner]

[ a pause, and she pulls back to put her hands on his cheeks, thumbs gently brushing his face. ]

. . . that is not your fault. You shouldn't feel-- guilted into continuing a relationship you don't want.

[squirreledaway]

I shouldn't have started it in the first place. I wasn't sure...

[so he's kind of mumbling]

[threadspinner]

[ no no no someone hurt my baby >:C suppressing the urge to march over to turq immediately and handle the problem herself. ]

....Emil. Please.

[ She sounds a little desperate and sad. ]

You're a good person.

[squirreledaway]

[good people do not trick other people who are good...]

... Thanks, Daisy.

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[ YES THEY-- no they don't that's why I'm not a good person. ]

......I had a girlfriend at home. Did I ever tell you that?

I...mm, I almost ruined our relationship.

[squirreledaway]

What happened...?

[threadspinner]

[ She takes a breath, doesn't meet his eyes. ]

I became a rather premature alcoholic when I was fifteen.

[squirreledaway]

[... he can't even nervously laugh, because that's terrifying. He'd watched that happen with Hail]

Did you get help...?

[threadspinner]

..... [ and shakes her head. ]

I'm not brave enough. I'm still not brave enough.

[squirreledaway]

But you weren't like that here...

[threadspinner]

I didn't want to make any of my team feel ashamed to know me. I didn't tell anyone, because I didn't want you to know.

I wanted....to really be Daisy this time.

[squirreledaway]

[He wraps his arms around her. cuddlessss]

... Well, I'm glad that... you succeeded, I think. Because something like that... I don't even know what to do. It's scary.

[threadspinner]

[ curls into him. ]

Don't let that be you, alright? Don't...feel ashamed of yourself and unable to change.

[squirreledaway]

I won't.

[at least not intentionally]

But you're not that unable to change. You've done a lot of it here, haven't you...?

[threadspinner]

....I'd like to think I'm a whole different person.

[ she sniffles a bit. ]

I...didn't go home because I'm scared. I didn't want to die.

[squirreledaway]

Die...? What do you mean?

[threadspinner]

I was worried paradox space would reject my absence and kill me immediately. That happens occasionally in our world, usually to Dave.